REGRET!!!!

I am so tired but can't sleep so i decided to write another post. I actually wrote this one a while ago, when my computer was broken and haven't had time to post it.

We all do things we regret, big things, small things, things everyday that we wish we could take back, relive or just not do all together. We regret things with our friends, family members, that guy who sits behind us in english class, that stranger on the street or even within ourslves. We regret that time we said something extremely dumb in front of that cute guy, or that time we told a best friend's secret, cheated on a boyfriend, or lied to a parent, or even lost the "one that got away". Everytime we make a choice there is that tiny little doubt in the back of our heads wonderng if we are making the right decision or if it will come back to kick us when we're down later on.
When i think about this, i a get a strange image of jimminy cricket sitting on my shoulder telling me whats the right choice and exactly what i should do in these hard situations. Unfortunately this isn't the case, and it is impossible to tell when we are making the right choices and when we will regret our actions later on. Especially when it comes down to acting on our emotions.
In my personal experience, i wonder often about things in the past i wish i could change. Everything from what i spent last friday night doing, to what relationships i am in or not in. When deciding to start or end a relationship, all these uncontrollable thoughts just fly through my head 100 miles a minute, just wondering and weighing what the right choice would be. And how can you ever be sure that you made the right choice?Can you ever be sure at all, even 50%?
I am going to quote a movie, as lame as it is, the wedding planner, when the guy who is having doubts about his relationship says, "What if what i think is great really is great, but its not as great, as something greater?". So how do u really know when you have found what you want, if what you have only seems great because its all you know. It is this dilemma that causes regret because, like me, once you have something that is the greatest and lose it, how can you ever be sure that you can find something that great again, and if not, than why did you leave it in the first place?And why couldn't you see how amazing it was at the time?
This is my dilemma, i had something that i thought was good, and in heinsight was probably the greatest thing i could have had, and i lost it in some horrible game of chance, and with the gods against me, and i am now left with the memory of it. Well as the old saying goes ''tis better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all" but i disagree because now, all future relationships will be forever compared to that one that was amazing. And, if i never do find someone that makes me feel that same way, i will forever regret letting that one person get away. In the end, we all regret things, even things that seem irrelevant now, in a week or two may be more important than you even imagined.
But the biggest regrets that i usually have? Things i didnt do or didn't say or didn'tstop from happening. Not acting is the biggest mistake of all. If you feel it, say it!If you want to do something, go for it!If you see an opportunity, take it!Because after its all said and done, you don't want to be alone in a room with nothing but regret to keep you company.

Christmas is coming so fast...

I have hardly been writing, so i need to start catching up. One thing that i really noticed this week was that I am really excited for christmas but along with christmas time always comes the crazy christmas shopping. I love to buy gifts for people, but for some reason, around the holidays people always seem to be mean, unfriendly, and just plain rude. For example, when i went to Toronto shopping on monday this lady in Roots was screaming at the salesperson because they rang in a price $2 higher than what she thoguht it should have been. In the end, really don't know what became of that woman or that over priced pair of mittens she bought, but really, isnt the holiday season supposed to be happy, joyful and giving, instead of miserable and rude? And to further prove my point, i was walking in the mall and people kept continuiously walking into me and hitting me with their bags, and not one single person appologized. This time of year is crazy when it comes to malls and i am very happy to be done my christmas shopping.
I also noticed that all the stores seem to be playing christmas music and christmas carols, but really, it drives me crazy and i celebrate christmas, i can only imagine how annoying it would be to a jewish person trying to shop.
Well i unfortunately need to go wrap my gifts and start making my christmas cards, so this blog will have to be cut short. It seems that there are endless things to do this time of year, but its all in good spirit. So for those of you who won't be viewing any blogs over the holiday, have a good and safe holiday and a great new years, and i will see you all in class after the break. Except for Cole ofcourse, lol, i will see you at christmas...

Once a cheater always a cheater?

In the last week my computer has continued to be broken, so my entries are sort of grouped together because i can only post them from school.

My response today is in regards to Jessica's submission from a few weeks ago about a cheating boyfriend. When i read this entry not only was i appauled that her boyfriend was cheating but rather the fact that the word AGAIN was placed directly beside it. It definitely made me think about what i would do in this position. For me, the answer was simple. He would be out of the picture completely, no contest! I really don't understand why anyone would put up with that behavior and abuse of trust. I don't understand why so many teenagers end up in relationships with infidelity and chosoe to do nothing but accept it. I can't believe that they don't realize how much better they are, and how much betetr they deserve, instead of simply accepting this disrespectful behavior from their partner. I also think that "once a cheater, always a cheater" stands true. If some one is able to get away with something once, they will msoty definitely do it again and again. Even in my personal experience, i have had afriend that cheatefdd on his girlfriend as soon as he realized he could get away with it and she would just accpet it, he did it even more. Even as we were out to dinner as a group he tried to pick up the waitress in the absence of his girlfriend.
I also felt strong sympathy for jessica when i read this. That is terrible that you seem to accept that this is happening and don't seem to have the strength to realize how great you are and the fact that someone equally great is what you are deserving of. If someone is willing to cheat on you and not consider your feelings, then they are certainly not worth any of your time or feelings either.
Just my thoughts on cheaters...stay tuned for more random opniions in the future...